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Are you in benzo withdrawal? Do you feel stuck? Hopeless? Do you wish you could be more positive? More active? In part two of this three-part series, you will learn tips for improving your physical and mental health. Maintaining a positive mindset during withdrawal may sound like a near impossibility — but it’s a goal worth fighting for. And keeping active — while a continuous struggle – can be equally as challenging but just as key to your sanity and success. Video ID: BFP004 Watch the Video This episode is part of a 3-part series. Listen to Part 1 here: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/managing-the-fear-of-benzo-withdrawal-part-1-bfp003 Listen to Part 3 here: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/managing-the-fear-of-benzo-withdrawal-part-3-bfp005 The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Introduction 02:27 Q&A 08:15 Feature: Managing the Fear of Benzo Withdrawal (Part 2) 23:07 Moment of Peace Episode Summary Welcome to the second segment of our 3-part series on Managing the Fear of Benzo Withdrawal. This series is derived from a chapter in my book titled, “Managing the Fear,” which focuses on reducing the fear, anxiety, and stress during benzo withdrawal. Before we dive too deep into our featured topic, we will chat a bit and cover a few questions in our Q&A section on short-term use and symptoms in protracted withdrawal. Feature Series SERIES: Managing the Fear of Benzo Withdrawal In my opinion, fear, and the stress and anxiety related to that fear, cause more distress and more complications during withdrawal than anything else. And this fear is not some natural psychological fear. It’s chemically enhanced. On top of the original anxieties we had before our dependence on benzos, we now have a damaged nervous system that can’t process fear correctly. A system that can send us into a panic state — both psychologically and physiologically — at the least sign of distress. Above all, stop worrying. Worry, fear and anxiety increase all withdrawal symptoms. Many of these symptoms are actually due to anxiety and not signs of brain or nervous system damage. People who fear withdrawal have more intense symptoms than those who just take it as it comes and think positively and confidently about recovery. — Prof. Ashton, The Ashton Manual This series is broken down into three separate parts: PART 1 (https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/managing-the-fear-of-benzo-withdrawal-part-1-bfp003) — Series Introduction — 1) Taking Responsibility for Your Own Recovery PART 2 (this video) — 2) Keeping Positive — 3) Maintaining Mental and Physical Activity PART 3 (https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/managing-the-fear-of-benzo-withdrawal-part-3-bfp005) — 4) Having Kindness for Yourself and Others — 5) Finding Acceptance of Your Condition Episode Description Today we discuss two essential elements to maintaining a stable mindset during withdrawal: positivity and activity. 2) POSITIVITY Allowing your feelings to happen, all feelings, is critical to maintaining mental health. A positive mindset is not about suppressing your feelings or glossing over them and putting on a good face. That plan of attack can lead to disaster. What I’m talking about is a positive mindset. You still feel sad, angry, mad, and everything else at different times. But when something happens in your life, you will lean a bit more on the positive side than the negative side. Focus on what is good in your life. \3) ACTIVITY Keeping an active mind and body is critical to success during withdrawal. More and more studies show that keeping your mind active is key to keeping it healthy. This goes double for people with anxiety and triple for people going through benzo withdrawal. And being physically active is equally as important. Studies have shown that the first twenty minutes of exercise garners the most health benefits. Even if you can’t do anything else, a brisk walk every day can do wonders. It’s not just about exercise, it’s about being active. Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. — Ashton, C. Heather. Benzodiazepines: How They Work and How to Withdraw (aka The Ashton Manual). 2002. Accessed April 13, 2016. http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/. — Babyak, Michael, James A. Blumenthal, Steve Herman, Parinda Khatri, Murali Doraiswamy, Kathleen Moore, Edward Craighead, Teri T. Baldewicz and K. Ranga Krishnan. “Exercise Treatment for Major Depression: Maintenance of Therapeutic Benefit at 10 Months.” Psychosomatic Medicine 62(5)(October 2000):633-38. Accessed April 12, 2018. http://www.hibody.co.uk/Exercise%20treatment%20for%20major%20depression.pdf. — Bach, Richard. Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah. New York: Creature Enterprises, 1977. Print. — Finding Nemo. DVD. Directed by Andrew Stanton and Lee Unkrich. Performed by Ellen DeGeneres. Screenplay by Andrew Stanton, Bob Peterson, and David Reynolds. 2003. Buena Vista Pictures, 2003. — Foster, D E. Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal. Erie, Colorado: Denim Mountain Press, 2018. — McCarthy, Justin. “More Americans Say Crime Is Rising in U.S.” Gallup. October 22, 2015. Accessed April 12, 2018. http://news.gallup.com/poll/186308/americans-say-crime-rising.aspx. — Meixler, Eli. “‘Remember to Look Up at the Stars.’ Read Some of Stephen Hawking’s Most Memorable Quotes.” Time. March 14, 2018. Accessed March 15, 2018. http://time.com/5198842/stephen-hawking-quotes-universe-life. — Roser, Max and Esteban Ortiz-Ospina. “Global Extreme Poverty.” Our World in Data (Online Resource). 2018. Accessed April 12, 2018. https://ourworldindata.org/extreme-poverty. — Roser, Max and Esteban Ortiz-Ospina. “Global Rise of Education.” Our World in Data (Online Resource). 2017. Accessed April 12, 2018. https://ourworldindata.org/global-rise-of-education. — Roser, Max and Esteban Ortiz-Ospina. “Homicides.” Our World in Data (Online Resource). 2018. Accessed April 12, 2018. https://ourworldindata.org/homicides. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Many see benzo withdrawal as an epic, exhausting, never-ending battle — but what if it doesn’t have to be? In the final part of this three-part series, you’ll learn how to step back, get out of your own way, and let your body heal. Kindness — both to yourself and to those around you — is a hidden secret to recovery. Anger and resentment have never been a recipe for healing. And finding acceptance of your condition and compassion for all involved is the surest way to have peace and finally discover your new life on the other side. Video ID: BFP005 Watch the Video This episode is part of a 3-part series: Listen to Part 1 here: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/managing-the-fear-of-benzo-withdrawal-part-1-bfp003 Listen to Part 2 here: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/managing-the-fear-of-benzo-withdrawal-part-2-bfp004 The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Introduction 03:05 Q&A 09:00 Feature: Managing the Fear of Benzo Withdrawal (Part 3) 21:59 Moment of Peace Episode Summary Welcome to the third segment of our 3-part series on Managing the Fear of Benzo Withdrawal. This series is derived from a chapter in my book titled, “Managing the Fear,” which focuses on reducing the fear, anxiety, and stress during benzo withdrawal. Before we dive too deep into our featured topic, we will chat a bit and cover a couple of questions in our Q&A section on detox with flumazenil and which drug is the hardest to withdraw from Feature Series SERIES: Managing the Fear of Benzo Withdrawal In my opinion, fear, and the stress and anxiety related to that fear, cause more distress and more complications during withdrawal than anything else. And this fear is not some natural psychological fear. It’s chemically enhanced. On top of the original anxieties we had before our dependence on benzos, we now have a damaged nervous system that can’t process fear correctly. A system that can send us into a panic state — both psychologically and physiologically — at the least sign of distress. Above all, stop worrying. Worry, fear and anxiety increase all withdrawal symptoms. Many of these symptoms are actually due to anxiety and not signs of brain or nervous system damage. People who fear withdrawal have more intense symptoms than those who just take it as it comes and think positively and confidently about recovery. — Prof. Ashton, The Ashton Manual This series is broken down into three separate parts: PART 1 (https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/managing-the-fear-of-benzo-withdrawal-part-1-bfp003 ) — Series Introduction — 1) Taking Responsibility for Your Own Recovery PART 2 (https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/managing-the-fear-of-benzo-withdrawal-part-2-bfp004) — 2) Keeping Positive — 3) Maintaining Mental and Physical Activity PART 3 (This Video) — 4) Having Kindness for Yourself and Others — 5) Finding Acceptance of Your Condition Episode Description Today we discuss two essential elements to maintaining a stable mindset during withdrawal: kindness and acceptance. 4) KINDNESS It may sound like a trivial suggestion, but kindness is critical to success during benzo withdrawal. Kindness to yourself. Kindness to those around you. Kindness to everyone. Anger, resentment, fear, frustration, these all are common emotions during withdrawal and expressing them can feel good — in the short-term. But the truth is, they don’t help you heal. Having kindness for yourself, and for those around you trying to help you, is key to success during this difficult time. 5) ACCEPTANCE One of the best things that happened to me during withdrawal was when I found acceptance. I stopped struggling and fighting my symptoms and instead accepted my current condition. It sounds easy, but it’s a difficult transition and it usually only comes with time. Most people experiencing benzo withdrawal see their recovery as a struggle. A fight. A battle of epic proportions. And it can be. They want to do everything they can to make it disappear. And if they can’t make it go away, then make it as easy as possible. But the symptoms of benzo withdrawal are actually symptoms of healing. The drugs are gone, or at least reduced. All that’s left is your body trying to right itself. The best thing you can do during this time is to learn to accept your condition and let your body heal. Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. Ashton, C. Heather. Benzodiazepines: How They Work and How to Withdraw (aka The Ashton Manual). 2002. Accessed April 13, 2016. http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/. “Benzodiazepine Withdrawal Support: Substitution.” BenzoBuddies. Accessed March 1, 2017. http://www.benzobuddies.org/benzodiazepine-withdrawal-methods/substitution/. Foster, D E. Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal. Erie, Colorado: Denim Mountain Press, 2018. Lader, M.H. and S.V. Morton. “A Pilot Study of the Effects of Flumazenil on Symptoms Persisting After Benzodiazepine Withdrawal.” Journal of Psychopharmacology 6(3)(January 1992):357-63. Accessed March 6, 2017. doi:10.1177/026988119200600303. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Summary Story of benzo withdrawal from the founder of Easing Anxiety, D E Foster. This is a story of 12 years on clonazepam (Klonopin) taken as prescribed, a complicated 18-month taper, and ongoing protracted withdrawal with a wide variety of symptoms. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Doctors, Klonopin (clonazepam), Protracted Withdrawal, Celexa (citalopram), Prozac (fluoxetine), Digestive Issues, Updosing, Protracted Withdrawal, Cipro (ciprofloxacin), Fluroquinolone, Symptoms Initial Source: Book: “Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal” by D E Foster — https://www.amazon.com/dp/173227861X/ref=cm_sw_em_r_mt_dp_9MEJFbWB3RNDV Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/my-benzo-story-a-personal-account-of-withdrawal-bfp002 D's Bio on Easing Anxiety: https://easinganxiety.com/defoster Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Intro This is my benzo story as told in the book, “Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal.” I thought I’d add it to our stories section for those who might want to read it but haven’t read the book. I hope you enjoy it. BTW, the book is written in a Q&A format, so the following excerpt is told in this conversational style. Thanks for reading, D 🙂 D’s Story So, what’s benzo withdrawal really like? Tell me your story. Oh good, this is where I get to talk about myself. I wish I could say that I am too shy or humble to enjoy this, but I’m not. I can tell. When did it all start for you? I don’t know the actual date when I was first prescribed a benzo. It was sometime in 2002. I was struggling with stomach issues. Pain, spasms, irritable bowel, heartburn. This was not new for me. I had my first upper-GI test at six-months-old and my first pre-ulcer condition at the age of five. Stomach issues were just something I lived with. We all have our burdens; that was one of mine. I visited my primary care physician complaining about my stomach. We’ll call him Dr. Y. I guess he thought he would try a different approach and prescribed an anti-anxiety drug to see if it might help my ongoing struggles. I have dealt with mild anxiety issues here and there, but it was never serious. I wasn’t even complaining about anxiety to Dr. Y, but perhaps he thought it might be a factor. I didn’t know it was a benzodiazepine. I didn’t even know what benzodiazepines were. Back then, I just trusted my doctor. I didn’t question his judgment. So, I blindly took the medication. That drug was clonazepam (generic for Klonopin). I didn’t know it was a benzodiazepine. I didn’t even know what benzodiazepines were. There were no warnings. No mention of addiction or physical dependence. He said it might help my stomach, and that’s all I knew. How long did you take it? I was on clonazepam for over twelve years. Eleven years on the medication and then tapered for a year and a half. I started at 0.5 mg daily and eventually upped my dosage to 2 mg daily in the last couple of years before tapering. Were you in tolerance? Yes, but I didn’t know it at the time. I had various symptoms that I now know are common with benzodiazepine tolerance. They were milder than what I experienced during withdrawal, so I either ignored them or got them checked out by the doc. I didn’t think too much of it, and I never attributed the symptoms to the clonazepam. I changed doctors occasionally during that time. Each time the new doctor would continue the prescription. In those first 11 years, not one doctor suggested that I should re-evaluate the medication I was taking. So, I kept taking the drug, naive to its effects on my mind and body. When was the tipping point? When did you realize what was going on? In the summer of 2012, I went to a new doc, Dr. G, for a physical. When I told her about the clonazepam I was taking, she said, without any alarm or apparent concern, that I should start to wean off that drug. This is the first doctor in eleven years to suggest that I shouldn’t keep taking this medication. Still, I didn’t think much of it. Dr. G first wanted me to get on an anti-depressant, so she prescribed me fluoxetine (Prozac), 40 mg daily. She said it would help me in coming off of the benzo. I wasn’t too worried. But then, a few nights later, my whole life changed in an instant. I was trying to sleep on the twin bed in the front bedroom of our two-bedroom apartment. I had been snoring lately, so my wife and I were sleeping in separate rooms until I was able to lose some weight. I hated this, but it was the only reasonable decision since I kept waking her at night. This was my fourth day on Prozac, so I had just increased to my full dose of 40 mg that morning, per my doctor’s instructions. Anyway, sleep was evading me. I opened my iPad and decided to research Klonopin. I had nothing else to do, so I thought I’d kill some time. I can’t believe that in the past 11 years I never researched this drug I was taking. A mistake I’ll never make again. It didn’t take long for the panic attack to start. It didn’t take long for the panic attack to start. I came across horror story after horror story about benzodiazepine withdrawal. I was freaking out. In hindsight, I realize that this was my first, full-blown panic attack. I’ve had anxiety off and on in my life, but never something like this. I was terrified about what had been done to me and worse off, what was to come. I paced in my room for hours, and I knew that my life would never be the same. I soon realized that my panic attack wasn’t only caused by the fear of withdrawal, but also by an adverse reaction to Prozac. I’ve since learned that the prescription and dosage were inappropriate for someone in my condition. I stopped it the next morning just to be safe. Depression and a pervasive state of hopelessness set in soon after. That was the start of my new journey. The withdrawal chapter of my life. How long did your depression last? I’ve been to psychologists a few different times throughout my life for depression. I was never diagnosed with any specific disorder, but I’ve struggled now and then. My first counseling session was in college after my girlfriend dumped me. For six months I was in a deep, dark hole and couldn’t find any pleasure in life. I was never quite suicidal, but I could understand how people could consider it. It was an incredibly scary place to be and one I never wanted to visit again. Unfortunately, I wasn’t that lucky. I’ve never felt any stigma from visiting a therapist, so in the following years when I needed help, I’d find a local counselor and work through whatever the issues were at the time. Since this wasn’t my first depression, I had a few tools and knew what to do. I started to build my team, my support system. I already had the most amazing wife in the world (no she didn’t make me say that either), so now I just needed a few others to come along for the ride. I found a new therapist nearby, and I started to journal, which I continued for the next five years throughout withdrawal. Since my memory was — and still is — somewhat rubbish, that journal became an integral part of the foundation for this book. When did you decide to withdraw? That first night. But I’d read enough to know that I needed help to do so. About a week after my panic attack, I visited my previous doctor, Dr. V. I didn’t want to go back to Dr. G after the issue with Prozac, and I was comfortable with Dr. V. It was a three hour round trip to his office in the mountains, but I needed someone I could trust. Dr. V is the idyllic small-town doc. He has a calming, wise presence and took his time each visit to listen to me, a quality that is difficult to find with today’s trend of seven-minute appointments. He was the perfect fit for someone like me. He spent over 30 minutes with me during that visit. I told him everything I had learned about benzos and about how freaked out I was regarding my addiction. He listened and discussed the issue with me at length. Like most doctors at that time, Dr. V didn’t believe there was a serious problem with long-term benzodiazepine use. He said that I didn’t need to withdraw from the benzos at all and that he had patients who had been on them much longer and at higher doses with no problems. Even though his words contradicted some of what I read over the past several weeks, I still felt that he was listening to me and wanted to work with me. He wanted me to wait for six months before beginning my taper. I told him that I didn’t want to stay on the drug. I wanted off. And that after reading The Ashton Manual, I had a plan and I wanted to start immediately. He said he would work with me, but he wanted me to wait for six months before beginning my taper. Six months? He made you wait six months before even starting to taper? Exactly. And it sucked. I hated that I had to wait. I believed that these drugs were destroying my body and mind from the inside and I wanted them out of me…now! I didn’t want to wait one more week, let alone six months. I considered finding another doctor, but where? A few days passed, and I calmed down a bit. I thought back on something Dr. V said in the appointment that — as hard as it was to admit — made some sense. He said he wanted me to stabilize mentally before starting my taper. He knew that people who attempted to withdraw have an even harder time the second, third, or fourth attempt. I later learned that this was called kindling, but at the time I just wanted it all to be over. Dr. V thought an anti-depressant might help… Dr. V thought an anti-depressant might help, and after I shared with him my experience with fluoxetine (Prozac), he prescribed me a low dose of citalopram (Celexa). I took it as specified for the next couple of months, but eventually tapered off it before starting my clonazepam taper. I didn’t have any adverse side effects from the SSRI, but I was determined to do this as medication-free as possible. I realize now that Dr. V was walking a very fine line with me during that first appointment. I believe that he tailored his recommendations since I had heightened anxiety and first needed to address that issue. He didn’t want to scare me with any more horror stories, and he knew quite well that if I started the taper in my current mental state, I probably wouldn’t make it. I am forever grateful to Dr. V for his wisdom, support, and especially his calm and compassionate manner. He was exactly the partner I needed for my withdrawal, and I am blessed that I had him in my life when I did. So, did you stabilize? The next month or two were hell. I couldn’t stop obsessing about the benzos, what they were doing to my body, and what my future held. I was full of anxiety, and my depression wouldn’t let go. I had some more panic attacks, lost work, and closed off from the world. I now realize that I was in tolerance at that time and already dealing with some withdrawal symptoms. But, I did do a few things right. I started my sessions with a new psychologist. Celeste was great and incredibly supportive of my struggles. I also got a membership to a nearby gym and started working out and swimming again. It was during this time that I discovered yoga and meditation. Both have been vital to my recovery and to my life. Over the following months, my tools slowly helped me to come to terms with my situation and stabilize my mood. I worked through some childhood and family issues with Celeste and developed some new tools to help with my anxiety. Finally, six months were up, I was more stable, and it was time to return to Dr. V. How did it go? It was February of 2013. I had my plan in hand. I had researched benzo withdrawal to excess, and I knew exactly what I needed to do. My mood improved, and I believed I was ready. Dr. V said he was impressed, and that he could see that my mental state had stabilized. I had taken charge and was in control of my own recovery. He initially suggested a faster taper than I planned on, but I calmly told him that based on my research, a slower taper would be the best course of action for me. I suggested 0.25 mg every two weeks with the flexibility to stop and stabilize at any dosage for as long as needed. It was a little faster than recommended by Ashton, but I felt that it was appropriate for me at the time. I also decided to taper without the help of diazepam (Valium) as a substitution drug. The thought of adding another benzo to my system, regardless of its benefits, was more than I wanted to undertake. He agreed to my plan and prescribed the proper dosages to start my taper. I was on my way. Yeah! How did the taper go? I wound up taking much longer than planned, and I’m glad I did. Over the next 18 months, I tapered off clonazepam on my own schedule. In the beginning, I didn’t have many problems. But once I got down below one milligram (half of my original dose), my symptoms became stronger and I had more difficulty. It was a hard road. Did you ever reinstate? Updose? Unfortunately, yes. In September of 2013, I started a new job at a marketing firm in Boulder. I was finally able to return to the business world, and I was hired to develop database systems for the company. It was exciting and terrifying at the same time. My first day was hell. Filled with anxiety. Throat tightening. Tremors. Dizziness. Restlessness. My new office was a tiny half-cube in the middle of the hallway. I felt everyone was staring at me. My boss was in New York, and I didn’t really have much guidance. Panic attack. Not my first, and not my last. I finally got through that first day, but I came home and told my wife that I didn’t think I could do it. She listened, as she always does so well, and helped talk me down. Unfortunately, day one was a cake walk compared to day two. The next day I had to fly to a convention in Baltimore. I know, crazy, huh? The anxiety was overwhelming. My physical symptoms were on fire. Shaking, spiders on my face, throat-tightening, muscle pains, tinnitus, etc. Flying never used to be a problem for me, but now my nerves were raw, and every little stressor was amplified. I almost canceled the trip multiple times, but it was a new job, and I knew I had to go through with it. No pressure, right? I hadn’t traveled since I started withdrawal, and I was terrified. In the weeks before the trip I had nightmares. I woke up in cold sweats wanting nothing more than to make the trip go away. But it had to be done. I forced myself to go to the airport and get on the plane and surprisingly, I made it through the flight okay. I meditated half of the way there. After I arrived in Baltimore, I checked in and went to the convention center and tried to fit in. But the worst wasn’t over. That night in my hotel I had another panic attack. And this was a bad one. I could hardly breathe, the world was spinning, I couldn’t think straight, and I was all alone. What if something happened? Would anybody notice? What if my throat closed entirely and I couldn’t breathe? What if my heart palpitations are a heart attack? What if? What if? I was pretty sure I was going to die. I finally convinced myself…that if I updosed just a little, it might help me get through. I finally convinced myself, as so many of us do, that if I updosed just a little, it might help me get through. So, I did just that. I took another 0.25 mg going from 0.5 mg daily to 0.75 mg. It doesn’t sound like much, but with such a potent benzo as clonazepam, it doesn’t take much. It helped for a little while. I made it through the rest of the trip and returned home. But the truth is, I probably would have made it through the trip without updosing. It just didn’t feel like it at the time. It was six months before I started to taper down again. Updosing was a mistake, but we all make mistakes. I was in a challenging situation, and I did the best I could. When did you jump (take your last dose)? My last dose of clonazepam was on August 20, 2014. It was a great day, and I am so proud of that accomplishment. Unfortunately, it wasn’t the end of the symptoms. In fact, it was barely the beginning. What were your withdrawal symptoms? Like most people going through benzo withdrawal, I suffered from a wide variety of symptoms that came and went through various stages of the process. This may look like a long list — and it is. Most people have far fewer symptoms than I did. Some of these symptoms were mild and periodic, but others were quite severe. Some of them lasted for only a few months, others, which I like to call my “greatest hits,” have been with me for years. I’ll go into more detail on these later but for now, here’s a quick rundown: Akathisia (inner restlessness) Anger/Irritability Anxiety/Depression Benzo Belly (digestive issues, abdominal distention) Body Sensations (tingling, numbness, pain) Cognitive Issues/Memory Loss Dizziness/Vertigo Emotional Blunting (being emotionally numb) Facial Paresthesia (the sensation of spiders on my face) Flushing/Sweating Heart Palpitations Inflammation Insomnia Muscle Tics/Tremors/Shaking Muscle Tightness/Aches/Pain/Pulls/Tears Panic Attacks Pelvic Floor Dysfunction/Groin Pain/Abdominal Pain Personality Changes Restless Legs Sensory Hypersensitivity (nasal for me) Slurred Speech Throat Tightening Thrush (oral infection) Tinnitus (ringing in the ears) Urinary Issues You weren’t kidding. It’s hard to believe you had all those symptoms. I know. I even have trouble believing it, and I lived through it. But it happened, and it’s still happening. I wish to hell it wasn’t. Do you think your symptoms are lasting longer than most others? Yes, definitely. I’m one of the 10–15% of long-term users who suffer from the protracted version of withdrawal. That puts me in the minority. My experience is extreme and is not a typical example of benzo withdrawal. Some have had symptoms 10 years or longer, but it’s rare. Most withdrawal experiences will be shorter in duration than what I experienced, and that’s excellent news. Do you think your symptoms are more severe than others? I know people who have tried to withdraw multiple times from a combination of drugs, including multiple benzos, and have yet to find success. I know people who haven’t been able to leave their bedrooms for days due to overwhelming pain and anxiety. I know people who have had seizures, convulsions, and even temporary paralysis. I know people who have lost jobs, friends, and even marriages. And I am very sorry to say, I also know people who didn’t make it and took their own lives. It’s tough to gauge the severity of my symptoms against others. It’s tough to gauge the severity of my symptoms against others. Our experience of benzo withdrawal is incredibly subjective. But do some have it worse than me? Absolutely! Many have had it far worse than me. And it pains me every day to think about what they’re going through. What do you think caused your protracted state? I have a few theories. I did make some mistakes during withdrawal. I tapered too quickly, especially toward the end. I updosed, which can cause problems. I also blindly took a specific antibiotic, which I later learned can aggravate withdrawal. And then there’s the Klonopin factor. Most agree that those who take clonazepam (Klonopin) long-term have a higher incidence of protracted withdrawal than the other benzos. Still, the real answer is that I have no idea. There are so many factors that can dictate what our withdrawal experience will be like, such as genetics, stress levels, mental stability, use duration, dosage, support systems, and diet. I may never know the real cause(s) of my extended symptoms, and that’s okay. For now, I’m just focused on healing. Did you work during your withdrawal? Some. I worked on this book throughout my withdrawal when I had time. It helped keep me sane. I think the process of researching, logging, writing, and reaching out to people in the benzo community kept me centered and focused. Before my taper, I was working as a contract screenwriter while teaching at college. I also helped organize and taught at various film festivals and conferences. I enjoyed working in the film industry and loved the writing and teaching. Unfortunately, my occasional writing contracts and adjunct college instructor salary didn’t do a lot to support my family. So, I returned to database work and got settled in the marketing firm in Boulder. I was moved out of the half-cube in the hallway and into my own private office, which helped significantly in managing my distractions and anxiety. The office where I was employed housed a division of the company that was focused on the natural food industry. So, I was surrounded by a lot of amazing people who were interested in eating and living a healthy life. I didn’t know it when I started, but that was the perfect place for me to be at that time. They offered yoga, massage, a gym with a ping-pong table, and allowed me to bring my dog to work. I enjoyed the environment and especially the people I was privileged to work with. I was tapering most of the time I was employed there. There were some hard times. Some real hard times. I tried to limit my sick days and worked from home on occasion as needed. I often traveled to corporate headquarters in NYC, which was very difficult at first, but over time I found ways to manage the stress. I converted my office into an anti-anxiety retreat with aromatherapy candles and soft lighting. I often worked through my lunches, but occasionally I would take this time to take a walk around the tree-lined streets, participate in a company-offered yoga class, or pop over to a nearby community center for some mid-day meditation. I buried myself in work which helped keep me focused. I did everything I could to mitigate my symptoms, and I believe I managed the situation quite well. I lasted four hours at the new job. But when promised advancements continually got delayed, I started to get restless and began to return calls from the recruiters who were contacting me. Database skills were in high demand at the time. After 18 months at that company, I accepted a new job with a financial services company in downtown Denver, which almost doubled my salary. I traded an excellent work environment for more money. It felt like a no-brainer at the time. I lasted four hours at the new job. Four hours? Seriously? This was not my proudest hour. I had a panic attack the first morning and quit before lunch. I have never done anything like that at a job before. On the bus ride home that morning, I just kept telling myself that this is not like me. What was going on? I was now in acute withdrawal. Tapering was a cake walk compared to this. It turns out that I had finished my taper and I was now in acute withdrawal. Tapering was a cake walk compared to this. My symptoms had kicked into overdrive. Plain and simple, I couldn’t handle the stressors of ordinary, everyday life. And a new job, in a very stressful, open-office environment with co-workers staring at me all day long, was something my mind and body just couldn’t handle. I so badly wanted to return to my office oasis at the previous job where I could manage my symptoms in private. But that ship had sailed. I couldn’t go back and ask for my job back. So, I went home, told my amazingly understanding wife that I was out-of-work, and started all over again. Were you able to find another job? Yes, for a while. I did database consulting for the next couple of years. I had two contracts with very prestigious companies, one for 12 months and the other for three. I was asked to extend both, but in the end, I had to leave each due to my health. These failures at work really took a hit on my already struggling self-esteem. I knew that the main culprit in all these scenarios was my withdrawal, but that was little consolation when I couldn’t provide for my family. Cognitive dysfunction, lack of short-term memory, and anxiety were the most significant problems at work. Oddly, I could still program in my core computer languages and develop database models in my sleep. Unfortunately, I couldn’t learn new systems. I still struggle with cognitive dysfunction today. It’s like there’s a wall. I still struggle with cognitive dysfunction today. It’s like there’s a wall. It’s incredibly frustrating and just plain frightening. And as the pressure increases, the insomnia increases, and all my symptoms shift into overdrive. In fact, at my last contract position, I excused myself from work one morning in a state of panic with uncontrollable shaking. I was dizzy, nauseous, and almost in tears. I had to call to have my wife pick me up and drive me home because I wouldn’t have been safe behind the wheel. That’s not me. I’ve always excelled in my career. I’ve developed some of the top systems for some of the largest corporations in the country, but I just can’t anymore. And that’s a very bitter realization to accept. So how are you doing now? I was four years benzo-free in August 2018. Just saying that feels good. Overall, I am doing well. Most days are good days, but I still have bad ones too. I struggle with my symptoms now and then and there are times that I let them get the better of me. Anxiety and cognitive issues are still a challenge, but I keep active and do my best to work around them. I also continue to have some insomnia, akathisia, tinnitus, paresthesia, and a few other mild symptoms, but I’ve learned to accept them, and they don’t bother me as much anymore. When I hit a wave, and my symptoms kick in, I remind myself of what it was like in the middle of withdrawal — on the worst of days — and remember how far I have come. I’m doing okay right now, and I know in my heart that I’m getting better every day. Update: October 2020 This story was originally published in my book in the fall of 2018. It is now two years later, and I am six years benzo-free. Much has happened since then. I have definitely improved and I am much happier than I was. Do I still have symptoms? Yes. I wish I could say otherwise, but that’s not the case. I still have issues with anxiety, cognition, and memory in addition to some lingering physical symptoms like facial parasthesia, periodic akathisia, pelvic floor dysfunction, and a few others. That being said, I am happy now and doing much better than I was during acute withdrawal. Part of my improvement is actual physiological healing. But part of it is also psychological. I’ve accepted my condition and learned to live with my limitations. I hope these limitations are temporary, but even if they aren’t, I know I will be okay. Trust me, it’s not as bad as it sounds. There is good and bad in everything in life. The trick is to find the good and celebrate it, while not allowing the bad to take you down. Thanks for reading my story. Please, leave a comment on our feedback form if you like. I’d love to hear from you. Keep calm, taper slowly, and take care of yourself, D 🙂 References Foster, D E. Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal. Erie, Colorado: Denim Mountain Press, 2018. https://easinganxiety.com/book. Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE New Podcast Explores Anti-Anxiety Drugs, Sleeping Pills, and the Struggle of Withdrawal The Benzo Free Podcast is here and launches on Thursday, Feb. 21. Hosted by author D E Foster, this weekly podcast explores the background and dangers of benzodiazepines and Z-drugs while providing first-hand insight into the reality of withdrawal. ERIE, COLORADO, February 21, 2019 – Benzos are some of the most popular drugs ever created. They are also some of the most addictive. Known best by their brand names, such as Ambien, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium, and Xanax, these drugs are taken by millions of people every day, and yet few know much about them, let alone what it’s like to withdraw. Our goal is to help change that. Welcome to The Benzo Free Podcast. This new podcast is a weekly discussion about benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines, those who take them, and how to survive dependence and withdrawal. Your host, D E Foster, was prescribed clonazepam (Klonopin) for over 12 years and is now four years benzo-free. In the podcast, D blends first-hand experience, personal stories, interviews, and a variety of facts and studies from his five years of research on the topic. Podcast episodes will be available on the Benzo Free Website and on podcast providers such as Apple Music, Spotify, Google Play, Stitcher, TuneIn, and others. ABOUT THE HOST – D E Foster is a former writing instructor at the University of Colorado and the Colorado Film School and author of the book, “Benzo Free: The World of Anti-Anxiety Drugs and the Reality of Withdrawal.” Podcast Website: https://easinganxiety.com/podcast RSS Feed: www.benzofree.org/feed/podcast Produced by: Denim Mountain Press Now Available on: Apple Music and Stitcher (More coming soon…)

Summary Story of benzo withdrawal from a mother of two whose been on Xanax for 33 years along with Ambien, Buspirone, and Imipramine. She is currently tapering off her medication. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Xanax (alprazolam), Doctors, Support Groups, Faith Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/the-ashton-manual-who-wrote-it-and-why-you-should-read-it-bfp007 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Cheryl’s Story I just ran across your podcast and I have listened to the first 3. My story. I’m 57. I have been on Xanax for 33 yrs, basically my entire adult life. I have 2 grown children and 5 grandchildren. A very supportive husband (a wonderful hard working, easy going man of few words). We live in a very rural area in SE Kansas. My first panic attack was when I was 7. I really don’t know how I made it through school. I had to learn how to hide my panic. No one knew about it, not friends or family. After my children were born, I finally couldn’t cope so I went to my doctor and he put me on Xanax. Finally, I could relax, I also suffer from emectophobia (the fear of throwing up). I was taking up to 8 mg a day until about 18 months ago… No one ever told me about these drugs. Cheryl I started working at a mental health clinic where I started talking to the staff and a physiatrist. I have been to the Mayo clinic in Scottsdale, KU medical center, doctors in Tulsa, and so many therapists and counselors that I can’t remember all of them. I was taking up to 8 mg a day until about 18 months ago. I was again transferred to another counselor who said I needed to get off of it. Also Ambien, buspirone, and imipramine. I’m now down to 4.5 mg a day of Xanax and am still on the others. No one ever told me about these drugs. I, like you, finally started to do research while going from 5 down to 4.5 and suddenly I started feeling symptoms of withdrawal. Now, along with yet another therapist, we are continuing the taper but she wants me to wait another couple of weeks before tapering down by .25 mg because of the symptoms. I find Facebook and Benzo buddies very unhelpful and causes more stress for me personally. Benzo Brains on you tube is better for me at this time. More informative. I know I have a long way to go. I have been house-bound since the first of February. I have been relying on my faith to get through this. I am already on disability since 1997 and am really thankful for that, but the panic “disorder” is what I get disability for. (I was lucky to have a very understanding judge, but still had to fight for it) When I get through this with the grace of God, I want to help others. I could go on and on but I’m sure you have heard it all before. My taper is going to be long and slow at first to see how I handle it. I made my first taper by myself and it was too much for me. My doctor told me I could go back up by .25 mg, but I didn’t want to do it, so I didn’t. When I get through this with the grace of God, I want to help others. I appreciate you and what you are doing. I think the handling of this medication is one if the most underestimated and uninformed there is. Keep up your good work! I’ll be listening and reading your book. And God Bless you! Cheryl Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Do you feel all alone in your dependence on benzos? Do you feel like no one believes you? Not even your doctor? Well, you’re not alone — thousands of others feel exactly as you do. In episode 6 of the podcast, we’re going to shake things up. Today we will talk about the difficulties many of us face in finding qualified, educated medical assistance. We’ll share differing opinions on the subject and provide a few suggestions on how to find the compassionate support you deserve. Video ID: BFP006 Watch the Video The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Introduction 09:20 Benzo News 12:02 Benzo Stories 16:45 Feature: The Doctor Dilemma 30:45 Closing Episode Summary Welcome to episode 6 of the Benzo Free Podcast. We’ve received a lot of feedback from you, the listeners, and have made some changes accordingly. We’ve changed up our podcast format a bit, added some new content, removed a few others, and enhanced the functionality to our feedback form while we were at it. First, let’s list the resources used in this episode, and then we’ll dive deeper into the content of episode 6. Introduction The introduction of today’s episode is a bit longer than most. Since we launched the podcast on Thursday, Feb. 21st, we finally have some feedback from our listeners. Most of it was positive, but there was some critical feedback too. And thus, we made some changes. Feedback Form – We’ve added an optional location field, a permission check box, and instructions for submitting audio content. Check out the form at https://easinganxiety.com/feedback. Podcast Format – We also changed up the format of each episode by adding two new sections, Benzo News and Benzo Stories, and eliminating our closing section, Moment of Peace. We also changed the name of the Q&A section and will now call it Mailbag which will include both questions and comments from our listeners. Length – We’ve also decided to try out a slightly longer episode length of 30-45 minutes. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments from our listeners. When are you going to have some interviews? We are working on scheduling interviews currently. Part of the delay is technological. We still need to set up and configure recording software for Skype so we can record remotely. We hope to have this ready to go in a few weeks. Benzo News Here are some news items that we wanted to share: Patient Surveys – Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) BIC is currently supporting two completely separate surveys on patients’ experiences with benzos. Please check them out if you wish to participate. Survey w/ USC Annenberg (on BIC Blog) Survey w/ Salem State University (on BIC Blog) Increase in Benzodiazepine Prescriptions – JAMA Network Several articles have been written lately about the increase in benzodiazepine prescriptions in outpatient facilities. One article, on the JAMA (Journal of the American Medical Association) Network’s webpage, was titled. “Patterns in Outpatient Benzodiazepine Prescribing in the United States.” It stated that the rate of visits which included a prescription for a benzodiazepine in outpatient visits increased from 3.8% to 7.4% for the years 2003 through 2015. The largest increase was not from psychiatrists’ offices, but from others including primary care. In addition, benzodiazepines are being prescribed more frequently now for pain, especially chronic pain and back pain. https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jamanetworkopen/fullarticle/2722576 Benzo Stories Even though we are receiving comments from the listeners, we are still light on personal stories and anecdotes. Today I shared a short observation of my experiences with some protracted symptoms during a charity poker game I attended the night before. Even though symptoms still plague me from time-to-time, I try and remind myself that I am so much better now than I was during the acute phase of my withdrawal. Feature Today’s featured topic: Dependence, Disbelief, and the Doctor Dilemma Today’s topic was triggered by a comment from a listener about the difficulties that so many face when trying to find a doctor who can help them with their dependence and withdrawal. Here are a few excerpts from her comment: I work as an admin in a group on Facebook helping others as best I can, within my limited abilities and mostly from experience, reading resources and audio resources as well as observations gleaned over a long period of years. I recognize the need for a disclaimer to protect oneself but I am caught in a dilemma when it comes to saying work with your trusted physician as those are few and far between if for many they even can be found. [Speaking about doctors] Most are sadly ignorant and only learning of the withdrawal but still harbor doubt. Those who are aware and accept the problem aren’t aware of safe tapering methods. I started tapering in 2011 along with some other prescription drugs and its been a minefield of narrowly and luckily avoiding a detox or too fast taper dangers. I’m now 63 and loving life post benzo withdrawal but had I listened to doctors and worked with them I can’t begin to guess where I’d be in life. I question, in fact, whether I’d still be alive. — Kathryn I understand Kathryn’s frustrations and empathize. 90% of all prescriptions for benzos come from primary care physicians, and this was also true in my case. I visited five different primary care providers during my withdrawal, and only one of them was well educated on benzos in my opinion. I completely sympathize with people like Kathryn. It’s hard enough when you have a doctor who will work with you, I can’t imagine what it’s like without one. This is problem which is gaining some attention from medical associations: There is a pattern in patients’ notes where doctors don’t believe that their withdrawal symptoms, such as pain, fits and psychiatric disorders such as panic and obsessiveness, are associated with the drugs… All too often doctors fail to take note of the fact they have been on benzodiazepines for years. — Marion Brown, a psychotherapist working with the British Medial Association, from an article in The Daily Mail by John Naish titled “Betrayed by the Doctors Who Turned Us into DRUG ADDICTS: How a Nation of Patients Became Hooked on Prescription Pills,” published on May 22, 2017. The truth is, I’ve spent a lot of time on some of the discussion boards, and I’ve heard the horror stories. And they can be terrible. Disbelief, denial, rapid detox… the problems seem endless. I wish that all doctors were properly educated on benzos and how to properly withdrawal, but sadly that is not always the case. So, thanks to Kathryn for her input, and I hope I have done it justice. I am limited in what I can say and share on this podcast — legally. As I’ve mentioned, I am not a medical professional, and this podcast is not medical advice and should never be substituted for it. Yes, it is true that I cannot advise anyone to disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. That being said, I would like to also say it is not just a legality here. I actually believe what I say in my disclaimer. Still, I realize that there are two sides to this issue and Kathryn has done an excellent job of raising some very valid concerns. All I can do is share my experience, some experiences I’ve heard from others, and tell you what I think. That’s it. Yes, I am limited do a degree in what I can say here, but despite my difficulties finding medial support during my taper, I am very glad that I didn’t give up trying. It wasn’t easy. Not by a long shot. But it was worth it. You see, I truly believe that most doctors want to help their patients. That’s how I feel about it. Perhaps I don’t live in the real world, but that is my belief. The truth is, there are some amazing doctors out there who are our biggest champions. Prof. Ashton, Prof. Lader, and Dr. Christy Huff (BIC) are just a few examples. If you can’t find a doctor, there are some resources which can help you. Many of them. The Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) has an article on their site titled: “How to Find a Doctor: 10 Tips to Quit Benzos.” They also have a list of benzo-wise or benzo-aware doctors throughout the U.S. W-BAD also has a full page of information on support for your taper, which also includes a list of doctors. And other sites have similar support. Links can be found in our resources section at the top of the show notes. Here are my thoughts on benzos and doctors. Take it or leave it, it’s just my opinion. I believe withdrawal from benzos is a complicated, medical procedure and should not be done without the supervision of a licensed physician. Yes, I’m supposed to say that, but I also believe it. Benzo withdrawal can be a medical nightmare for some people, and to have a doctor to work with us, who is sympathetic to our needs, is crucial. Not only did I need someone to prescribe tapered dosages, but even more so, I needed a doctor who knew what I was going through and could help me diagnose all of my symptoms. Especially those 5 EKGs that I’ve had. This is what I would do if I had to do it all over again. I’m not advising anyone on anything, but these are my thoughts: First, I would educate myself on benzos. • I would read the Ashton Manual, probably twice. • I would go online and read articles and board postings. • I would use my common sense to determine what is true. • And I would develop a plan of how I want to taper if that is what I decided to do. Second, I would speak with my current doctor or psychiatrist. • I would see if I can work with him or her. • We already have a working relationship, so better to start here. Third, if that doesn’t work, I would seek out a benzo-wise doctor. • I would check out the benzo-wise doctor lists I just spoke about. • I would ask people on the boards if anyone knows a benzo-wise doctor in my area. Fourth, if that doesn’t work, I would find one I could work with. • Perhaps this person isn’t well educated on benzos, but if he or she is willing to listen, they may just be the doctor for me. I believe that to solve this problem, we need to work with doctors and not against them. That may sound naïve to some, but it’s my opinion. But that, in no way, means that I don’t recognize the nightmare that some of you have experienced trying to find medical support when you so desperately need it. It should be easier, and doctors should be better educated. I hope this topic has been helpful. Thanks for listening. Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. Resources Mentioned in the News Section of Podcast Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) Survey w/ USC Annenberg (on BIC Blog) Survey w/ Salem State University (on BIC Blog) JAMA Article: “Patterns in Outpatient Benzodiazepine Prescribing in the United States” Resources Mentioned in the Feature Section of Podcast “90% of all prescriptions for benzos come from primary providers.” – from an article in the Milwaukee Journal Sentinel by Meg Kissinger titled “Thousands Prescribed Too Much Medicine,” published on March 15, 2017. Quote by Marion Brown from an article in The Daily Mail by John Naish titled “Betrayed by the Doctors Who Turned Us into DRUG ADDICTS: How a Nation of Patients Became Hooked on Prescription Pills,” published on May 22, 2017. Benzo Free’s Webpage on The Ashton Manual “Yes, Benzos Are Bad For You,” by Dr. Allen Frances on Pro Talk: A Rahabs.com Community, published on June 10, 2016. “How to Find a Doctor: 10 Tips to Quit Benzos” by JC Curle, on Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) blog published Dec. 12, 2018 “Find a Doctor” webpage on the Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) website. “What If My Doctor Stops My Prescription?” webpage on the World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD)website. “Finding Medical Taper Support” webpage on the World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD) website. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Have you read the Ashton Manual? Do you know what it is? Do you know who Prof. Ashton is? Well, if you or anyone you know is dependent on benzos, you should. In today’s feature, we focus on Professor C. Heather Ashton, her work with benzo withdrawal patients, and her life-saving manual. And we say a heartfelt thank you, for all she has done. We also touch on some news, discuss GABA receptors and the doctor dilemma, and share the first benzo story from one of our listeners. Video ID: BFP007 Watch the Video The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 03:02 Mailbag 11:42 Benzo News 14:18 Benzo Story 19:08 Feature: The Ashton Manual 30:17 Closing Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. MAILBAG: GABA Receptors The Ashton Manual New South Wales Government: Health Fact Sheet on Benzodiazepines AddictionBlog.org – “Five (5) Facts About Benzodiazepine Withdrawal (You Need to Know)” BENZO NEWS Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC) “Want to Prevent Suicides? Stop Ignoring Benzo Patients” on BIC Blog Benzo Free: Resources Page (including Suicide Hotlines) FEATURE – The Ashton Manual The Ashton Manual World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD) W-BAD: “Who Is Dr. Ashton?” W-BAD: “Reminder to Please Support Nomination for Prof. Ashton: UK Queen’s Honour List 2019” (Which includes letter by Wayne Douglas about Prof. Ashton) Benzo.org.uk: Professor C Heather Ashton Episode Summary This is the last of our launch episodes, next week we start with our regular weekly schedule releasing a new episode each Wednesday. Today’s feature is focused on Prof. Ashton and the Ashton manual and we also have a lot to share in our Mailbag, Benzo News, and Benzo Stories sections. Introduction Today’s introduction, in contrast to our last episode, was quite short. So, let’s move on. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments from our listeners. Can you tell me when the podcast episodes will be released each week? This question was submitted by Elizabeth in the comments for episode 5. I released the first 5 episodes on Wednesday, Feb. 21st The next week, this week, I am doubling up on episodes. I released episode 6 on Tuesday, Feb. 26th. And I am releasing this one, episode 7, on Thursday, Feb. 28th. Starting next week, we will be on our regular weekly schedule going forward. A new episode will be released every Wednesday. Depending on the speed at which the providers, such as Apple Music, Stitcher, Google Play, Spotify, and TuneIn approve new episodes, they will be available online Wednesday or Thursday. What are GABA receptors? I keep reading about them online, but I still don’t really understand what they are, or how they work. Rather than repost the entire description here, I will share a link to the Basics of Benzos page on the Benzo Free Website. Scroll down to “How Do Benzos Work?” for an explanation. COMMENT: Regarding our discussion on doctors in our last episode, “Dependence, Disbelief, and the Doctor Dilemma.” Here are a few excerpts from the comment that I shared on the podcast. You are very fortunate in your experiences with doctors. When I was going through acute benzo withdrawal, my doctors treated me like a criminal. They accused me of having taken more than was prescribed and then they accused me of having conversion disorder. They treated me like I was paranoid. I was told that benzo withdrawal symptoms only last a few weeks. I went through absolute hell for 14 months and have debilitating symptoms to this day although I have had improvements. The only good thing to come of this is that I vowed I would make a difference for other people and change the way the medical system treats patients like me. Now I’m halfway through an MSW program and intend to go back to the HMO, the next time with LCSW credentials and copies of work on benzo damage that I will eventually publish, and lay it out for them again, this time from the standpoint of a mental health professional who has been iatrogenically harmed. Meschelle from Alexandria, Virginia Benzo News “Want to Prevent Suicides? Stop Ignoring Benzo Patients” I shared highlights from a blog post on the website of the Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC). Here are a few of my comments. Please visit the BIC’s website to view the article. BIC Website Direct Link to the Blog Post Benzo Story We finally have our first story to share in our Benzo Stories section. I just ran across your podcast and I have listened to the first 3. My story. I’m 57. I have been on Xanax for 33 yrs, basically my entire adult life. I have 2 grown children and 5 grandchildren [and] a very supportive husband (a wonderful hard working, easy going man of few words). We live in a very rural area in SE Kansas. My first panic attack was when I was 7. I really don’t know how I made it through school. I had to learn how to hide my panic. No one knew about it, not friends or family. After my children were born, I finally couldn’t cope so I went to my doctor and he put me on Xanax. Finally, I could relax. I started working at a mental health clinic where I started talking to the staff and physiatrist. I have been to the Mayo clinic in Scottsdale, KU medical center, doctors in Tulsa and so many therapists and counselors that I can’t remember all of them. I was taking up to 8 mg a day until about 18 months ago. I was also on Ambien, buspiron, and imipramine. I was again transferred to another counselor who said I needed to get off of it. I’m now down to 4.5 mg a day of Xanax and am still on the others. No one ever told me about these drugs. I like you finally started to do research while going from 5 down to 4.5 and suddenly I started feeling symptoms of withdrawal. Now along with yet another therapist we are continuing the taper but she wants me to wait another couple of weeks before tapering down by .25 mg because of the symptoms. I know I have a long way to go. I have been house bound since the first of Feb. I have been relying on my faith to get through this. I am already on disability since 1997 and am really thankful for that, but the panic “disorder” is what I get disability for. I could go on and on but I’m sure you have heard it all before. My taper is going to be long and slow at first to see how I handle it. I made my first taper by myself and it was too much for me. My doctor told me I could go back up by .25 mg but I didn’t want to do it so I didn’t. When I get through this with the grace of God I, want to help others. I appreciate you and what you are doing. I think the handling of this medication is one of the most underestimated and uninformed there is. Keep up your good work! I’ll be listening and reading your book. And God Bless you! Cheryl Cheryl, from SE Kansas, USA Feature Today’s featured topic: The Ashton Manual – Who Wrote It and Why You Should Read It This feature topic is a sort of homage to Prof. Ashton and the Ashton Manual. Benzo Free, along with its host, support The Ashton Manual and recognize the number of lives it has saved over the past many years. Please be advised that Professor Ashton is now fully retired and no longer based at Newcastle Univeristy. She is therefore unable to deal with personal email enquiries with regard to benzodiazepine-related problems. Please also note that Professor Ashton does not support or endorse any internet support group. benzo.org.uk CAREER ACCOMPLISHMENTS Here are some highlights of Prof. Ashton’s career: Graduate of the University of Oxford where she obtained a First Class Honours Degree (BA) in Physiology in 1951. Postgraduate Doctor of Medicine degree (DM) in 1956 Member of the Royal College of Physicians, London in 1958 Fellow of the Royal College of Physicians, London in 1975 A National Health Service Consultant in Clinical Psychopharmacology in 1975 A National Health Service Consultant in Psychiatry in 1994. A researcher, lecturer, senior lecturer, reader, and professor at the University of Newcastle upon Tyne. A patron of the Bristol & District Tranquilliser Project Involved in the UK organization, Victims of Tranquilizers (VOT) Has submitted evidence about benzodiazepines to the House of Commons Health Select Committee. Has a Facebook page dedicated to her titled: “Tribute to Professor Heather Ashton” CLINICAL WORK For twelve years I ran a benzodiazepine withdrawal clinic for people wanting to come off their tranquillisers and sleeping pills. Much of what I know about this subject was taught to me by those brave and long-suffering men and women…It is interesting that the patients themselves, and not the medical profession, were the first to realise that long-term use of benzodiazepines can cause problems. — Prof. Ashton I shared some highlights from a letter written by Wayne Douglas, co-founder of World Benzodiazepine Awareness Day (W-BAD), regarding the nomination of Prof. Ashton for Queen’s Honours. You can read the letter via the link below. W-BAD Web Page with Letter THE ASHTON MANUAL The manual itself consists of four chapters: CHAPTER I: The benzodiazepines: what they do in the body CHAPTER II: How to withdraw from benzodiazepines after long-term use CHAPTER III: Slow withdrawal schedules CHAPTER IV: Benzodiazepine withdrawal symptoms, acute & prtracted Here are a few words from the 2011 supplement to The Ashton Manual: It is important to remember that by far the greatest majority of long-term benzodiazepine users do recover from withdrawal – given time. Even protracted symptoms tend to decrease gradually, sometimes over years. The individual needs to know that the actual drug withdrawal is only the first step towards recovery. It may be followed by a prolonged period of convalescence during which the damage caused to the person’s body – and often to his whole life – needs to be repaired as far as possible. But the brain, like the rest of the body, has an enormous capacity for adapting and self-healing. That is how life survives and how ex-benzodiazepine (quote) ‘addicts’ can be optimistic about their future. — Prof. Ashton Until you have been through the ordeal of benzo withdrawal, and found yourself so desparate for information and guidance, you’ll never know the type of life raft that this manual has been too us. Prof. Ashton, thank you. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

Summary Story of benzo withdrawal from a mother of two whose been on Xanax for 33 years along with Ambien, Buspirone, and Imipramine. She is currently tapering off her medication. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Klonopin (clonazepam), Polydrug, Doctors, Toxins, Leaky Gut, Natural Diet, Support Groups, Success Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/an-introduction-to-benzo-withdrawal-symptoms-bfp008 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Lynne’s Story Hi! Today was the first time I came across your Podcast and I want to tell you how impressed I am. I would like to tell you may story of recovery and I encourage you to use it. I was prescribed a benzo (Klonopin) for anxiety and depression in 2009 by a nurse practitioner in a small community clinic. The nurse gave me no information or warnings. And since I was not familiar with prescription drugs at all, I took it based on the fact that it was prescribed for me by an ‘expert’. I rarely even had pain relievers in my medicine cabinet let alone a prescribed drug. …it was alarming, but I never thought the drug could be causing my problems. So, my journey began and I was just a clueless rider in the back of the bus. So many things started to go ‘wrong’ with my physical condition it was alarming but I never thought the drug could be causing my problems. I was told by one doctor I had a thyroid condition and he gave me two prescriptions to “help”…sigh. So now I’m taking three different drugs and I develop more problems: insomnia, pain everywhere, bad body smell, sensitivity to smells light and sound, and a lot of crying for no reason at all. My life fell apart and I lost my job and couldn’t return to work. No one knew what was wrong with me and so I started seeing more specialists who all put me on different medications – 13 in total before I almost lost my life to them. As I started joining support groups on Facebook I started learning about all the things that were wrong with me and what could be causing them and I started to make changes in my life as I learned. One of the first things I learned was about what is called ‘leaky gut’ and how the toxins that get in our body by way of our leaking guts puts our health at risk in multiply ways but especially through our immune system. One of the first things I learned was about what is called ‘leaky gut’… After changing literally everything about my life, and I mean by getting rid of all toxins from life whether it was in my food my water, perfume, soaps, hygiene products, etc., I started to feel better. Next was tackling the prescription drugs and I was able to get off all but the benzo (Klonopin). I tried to get off the benzo at one point but I didn’t know how and so I failed and when I went back to it I even had the doctor increase the dose because I truly thought I needed it – so then I was taking 1.5mg a day. At one point I tried to overdose on them because I was so miserable, I didn’t see how I could make it any farther through life. After a year and a half on benzo support pages, I decided I could stop by tapering over an extended period of time. The doctor that was prescribing them to me listened to me because I brought a two-page testimony of a doctor who had been on a benzo and went through the horrors and talked about the importance of tapering. My doctor took the time to read it quickly while in the room with me because it was so short and concise. I truly believe if I hadn’t brought her testimony he wouldn’t have been so willing to work with me on a taper program. After a short discussion, we agreed to a six month taper (he wouldn’t go any farther) and I was happy that he even agreed to a six month time period. I also knew that I had enough extra pills to taper myself if 6 months wasn’t long enough. It took me seven months in total and I was successful. It took me seven months in total and I was successful. The first two weeks of each taper were the hardest and the second two weeks not so bad as my body adjusted to the new dose. I broke my pills into very precise pieces because I couldn’t afford to have a pharmacy titrate for me. I took my dose no matter how small at the same time everyday, and at the end I was literally taking three tiny crumbs each day that you could barely see. It worked, and I’ve been off of them now for nine months and life is good. I have a few symptoms occasionally — like twitching muscles — but overall I feel normal now. I also take a great deal of supplements and keep my body detoxed as much as possible. I believe this has been a huge help in recovery. I want to add something that I think is really important to recovery and that’s while tapering do not do anything strenuous, keep a simple and calm routine each day and it will be very beneficial. People who cannot find a peaceful setting will have a harder time withdrawing. Thanks for allowing me to share my story and if you want to interview me I would be honored. Have a great day! Lynne Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

What are the common symptoms of benzo withdrawal? How many are there? What do they all have in common? And, will any of them be permanent? In today’s episode, we take a brief tour through the persistent parade of possible symptoms which accompany benzo withdrawal syndrome. We also introduce a new documentary film in the works, discuss media coverage of BWS, and share a story of successful withdrawal. Video ID: BFP008 Watch the Video The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Introduction 09:03 Mailbag 13:16 Benzo News 17:33 Benzo Story 24:50 Feature: An Introduction to Benzo Withdrawal Symptoms 35:26 Closing Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. MAILBAG APA’s Definition of PTSD BENZO NEWS Benzo Free Resources Page (UPDATED) “As Prescribed — A Film by Holly Hardman “Flumazenil Risks Likely Outweigh Its Benefits” by Leon Gussow, MD in Emergency Medicine News FEATURE — An Introduction to Benzo Withdrawal Symptoms The Ashton Manual “Withdrawal from Benzodiazepines” by Shirley Trickett, in Journal of the Royal College of General Practitioners 33(254)(September 1983) Introduction I opened up today’s episode wondering where people were when they were listening to the podcast. Are they doing well, or poorly. And I reminded everyone that we’re here, those of us who have been through it, and you’re not alone. I also talked a bit about our cold snap in the northern U.S. and shared some statistics on the podcast that I recently observed, including our global reach. While our largest number of listeners are currently in the US, Canada, and the UK, we also have listeners in Switzerland, France, Finland, Norway, Netherlands, Ireland, Bulgaria, Australia, New Zealand, Brazil, Portugal, and even Qatar. In addition, we had over 600 downloads in the first two weeks of the podcast, which was nice to see. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments from our listeners. I wondered what your thoughts are about different healing patterns? Also, what about PTSD? This question was submitted by Catherine. She was curious if waves and windows are the norm, or if some people have consistent symptoms. I reminded her that everyone is different and some don’t experience waves and windows, especially in the lates stages of protracted withdrawal. I also mentioned that PTSD might be common in withdrawal, but in my opinion, it’s more of a question of semantics. Since I am not a medical professional, I didn’t have a clear and concise answer for her. Benzo News Here are the news articles shared in today’s podcast: Updates to Website: Benzo Free Resources I’ve been making some enhancements to the website lately. Several of the changes include making it more visually appealing on mobile devices. In addition, I just spent a couple of days creating a new resources section on the website. It now has its own menu category, it’s more graphically appealing (I hope), better categorized, and more user-friendly before. The categories are Suicide Prevention, Benzo Information Sites, Benzo Discussion Groups, and Film & Media. I am still adding new links and will continue to update it monthly. If you know of any site you would like to add to this list, please let me know on our feedback form. The podcast is driving more people to the website, and I want to make sure it is as functional and attractive as I can. Benzo Free Resources “As Prescribed — A Film by Holly Hardman“ I wanted to bring attention to a new film about benzos that’s coming soon. I just shared this on our Facebook the other page, but I wanted to also mention it here. Holly Hardman is currently in post-production on her documentary film, “As Prescribed.” She is still fundraising for the film, so if you’d like to donate a few bucks her way, I’m sure she would appreciate it. You can find a donations link on her website. As Prescribed Website Flumazinil and the Missing Coverage of Benzo Withdrawal in the Media I shared a story that I also posted on the Facebook Page about Flumazinil which caused me to think about the overall picture of media coverage of benzo withdrawal. The author, a physician, praised benzos for their amazing benefits. While I realize that his focus was more on short-term use in emergency and medical procedure settings, it still caused me concern. I took a look at the overall lack of coverage of dependence and withdrawal in many media stories and discussed the possible influence that we, as patients, might have on journalists and doctors alike. Benzo Story Today’s story is a success story from Lynne in Inglewood, California. Feature Today’s featured topic: An Introduction to Benzo Withdrawal Symptoms In our feature today, I discussed the possible common symptoms some experience during benzo withdrawal. This was a very high-level view and we will dive deeper into the subject of symptoms on future episodes. Psychological Symptoms: Anxiety – General (GAD), Hypochondria, Panic Attacks, Paranoid Thoughts, Phobias Behavioral – Anger, Irritability, Aggression, Depression, Obsessions, Suicidal Thoughts Cognitive – Cognitive Dysfunction, Memory Dysfunction, Intrusive Memories Excitability – Akathisia, Jumpiness, Restlessness, Restless Legs Perception – Depersonalization, Derealization, Hallucinations, Misperceptions, Perceptual Distortions Sleeping – Insomnia, Nightmares Social – Agoraphobia, Social Phobias Physical Symptoms: Abdominal/Gastrointestinal – Abdominal Pain, Appetite Change, Benzo Belly, Constipation, Diarrhea, Distention, Inflammation, Nausea, Groin Pain, Menstrual Difficulties, Pelvic Floor Dysfunction, Urinary Difficulties, Vomiting, Weight Change Eyes, Ears, Nose & Mouth – Blurred Vision, Double Vision, Difficulty Swallowing, Dry Mouth, Metallic Taste, Oral Thrush, Sore Eyes, Dry Eyes, Sound & Light Sensitivity, Tinnitus, Unusual Smell Head & Neck – Balance Issues, Dizziness, Light Headedness, Headache, Neck Pain, Slurred Speech, Throat Tightening Heart & Lungs – Flushing, Sweating, Heart Palpitations, Over-breathing Muscular – Aches and Pain, Electric Shocks, Fatigue, Sprains, Pulls, Tears, Stiffness, Tremors, Twitches, Jerks, Tics, Weakness, Convulsions, Paralysis, Seizures Nerve Sensations – Altered Sensations, Hypersensitivity, Numbness, Paresthesia, Skin Rashes, Itching, Tingling Immune & Endocrine – Increased Infections, Breast Swelling, Menstrual Difficulties The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. Please visit our website for our complete disclaimer at https://www.easinganxiety.com/disclaimer. CREDITS Music provided / licensed by Storyblocks Audio — https://www.storyblocks.com Benzo Free Theme — Title: “Walk in the Park” — Artist: Neil Cross PRODUCTION Easing Anxiety is produced by… Denim Mountain Press https://www.denimmountainpress.com ©2022 Denim Mountain Press – All Rights Reserved

When it comes to benzo withdrawal, all roads lead to anxiety. Anxiety is not only the most persistent and pervasive symptom of withdrawal, but it’s also the catalyst which makes all the others worse. In today’s episode, we learn about this mysterious emotional juggernaut called anxiety. What is it? What causes it? Why is it worse in withdrawal? And most of all, what can be done to help ease it? We also have two benzo stories, several news items, and a welcome message to the caregiver. Video ID: BFP009 Listen to the Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast is also available on... Apple Podcasts / Audible / iHeart / PodBean / Spotify / Stitcher Chapters 00:00 Quote 00:40 Introduction 07:05 Mailbag 13:04 Benzo News 18:03 Benzo Stories: Intro 19:43 Kathy’s Story 24:02 Jeff’s Story 31:30 Feature: Anxiety in Withdrawal 47:08 Closing Resources The following resource links are provided as a courtesy to our listeners. They do not constitute an endorsement by Easing Anxiety of the resource or any recommendations or advice provided therein. QUOTE: Soren Kierkegaard Kierkegaard, Søren. The Concept of Anxiety: A Simple Psychologically Orienting Deliberation on the Dogmatic Issue of Hereditary Sin. Princeton, NJ: Princeton University Press, 1980. MAILBAG The Ashton Manual BENZO NEWS “The Deadly Worst-Case Scenario for America’s Xanax Obsession” by Maria Szalavitz on published on Vice.com “Yes, Benzos Are Bad For You” by Dr. Allen Frances published on HuffingtonPost.com “Which Misused Prescription Meds Sent Americans to the ER?” by Dennis Thompson published on U.S. News and World Report FEATURE — Anxiety: The Beast of Benzo Withdrawal Barlow, David. Anxiety and Its Disorders. 2nd ed. New York: The Guilford Press, 2002. Helliwell, J., R. Layard and J. Sachs. World Happiness Report 2017. New York: Sustainable Development Solutions Network, 2017. http://worldhappiness.report/#happiness2017. Introduction In today’s intro, we opened with the quote from Kierkegaard, which I’ve reprinted below: And no Grand Inquisitor has in readiness such terrible tortures as has anxiety, and no spy knows to attack more artfully, choosing the instant when you are weakest, nor knows how to lay traps where you will be caught and ensnared, as anxiety knows how, and no sharp-witted judge knows how to interrogate, to examine you as anxiety does, which never lets you escape, neither at work nor at play, neither by day nor by night. — Soren Kierkegaard, “The Concept of Dread,” 1844 I followed that up with my pleasant surprise at the increase in likes of the Benzo Free Facebook page and how rapidly it has been increasing. And then I jumped into a welcome message for the caregiver. I wanted to let all of the listeners know that this podcast was as much for them as it was for the patient, and to share a genuine thank you for all they do. We also have some interviews coming and I’ll start the first one this weekend. And I closed by mentioning that this episode will probably run a little long, which it did. Mailbag This is where we share questions and comments which were discussed: Did you use any nutritional supplements during your taper and withdrawal? This question was submitted by Jill. I don’t have a clear answer for this one since I cannot recommend medication nor supplements nor give such advice. My experience during withdrawal includes B12 supplements prescribed by my doctor since my levels were low, kefir milk which helped my stomach for a while, and I was able to discontinue my stomach medication, again per doctor’s instruction. A normal healthy diet which includes generous amounts of fruit and vegetables and a source of protein and fats (from meat or vegetables), and not too much pure sugar or “junk foods,” provides all the nutrients a person needs. There is no general need for dietary supplements or extra vitamins or minerals or for “detoxifying” measures. All these can be harmful in excess. — Prof. Ashton, The Ashton Manual COMMENT from Kathryn, in Camrose, Alberta, Canada Kathryn shared her concerns about a comment I made in a previous episode where I stated that I was “grateful to Dr. Ashton for my sobriety.” Kathryn voiced her concern that the term “sobriety” made it sound like I was referring to addiction. I was not trying to imply anything with that comment and stated that I understood the issue around certain terminology and benzo dependence. I also stated that even if someone is dependent and addicted to benzos, whether they got them on the street or from a prescription, that they are just as welcome here as anyone else. Benzo News Here are the news articles shared in today’s podcast: The Deadly Worst-Cast Scenario for America’s Xanax Obsession This article highlighted the difficulties in Scotland when the government tried to crack-down on benzodiazepines. It includes an interview with Dr. Christy Huff of the Benzodiazepine Information Coalition (BIC). “The Deadly Worst-Case Scenario for America’s Xanax Obsession” by Maria Szalavitz on published on Vice.com “Yes, Benzos Are Bad For You” by Dr. Allen Frances I wanted to bring this article from 2016 back to the attention of the listeners because it is one of the best articles, written by a top-notch U.S. psychiatrist, which lays out the danger and damage caused by benzos. “Yes, Benzos Are Bad For You” by Dr. Allen Frances published on HuffingtonPost.com Which Misused Prescription Meds Send Americans to the ER? A recent report by US News and World Report states that benzodiazepines such as alprazolam (Xanax) and lorazepam (Ativan) are “most commonly implicated in health crisis that lead to an ER visit, followed by prescription opioids.” Of the 360,000 ER visits researchers identified which involved misuse of pharmaceuticals, “benzodiazepines were the primary prescription drug in 47 percent of cases.” “Which Misused Prescription Meds Sent Americans to the ER?” by Dennis Thompson published on U.S. News and World Report Benzo Stories I shared two stories today. One from Kathy in Windsor, Colorado and one from Jeff, in Winfield, Illinois. Jeff’s story was the first one submitted to us in audio format, so it was a pleasure to hear him share it in his own voice. Feature Today’s featured topic: Anxiety: The Beast of Benzo Withdrawal Today’s topic is all about anxiety and we spent a lot of time on it. It is the first in our series on symptoms, and I thought anxiety was a great place to start. In the episode, I discussed an intro to anxiety and shared possible causes. Then I moved onto anxiety in benzo withdrawal, and closed out with a section on how to ease the burden of anxiety. The Podcast The Benzo Free Podcast provides information, support, and community to those who struggle with the long-term effects of anxiety medications such as benzodiazepines (Xanax, Ativan, Klonopin, Valium) and Z-drugs (Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata). WEBSITE: https://www.easinganxiety.com MAILING LIST: https://www.easinganxiety.com/subscribe YOUTUBE: https://www.youtube.com/@easinganx DISCLAIMER All content provided by Easing Anxiety is for general informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Any health-related information provided is not a substitute for medical advice and should not be used to diagnose or treat health problems, or to prescribe any medical devices or other remedies. Never disregard medical advice or delay in seeking it. 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Summary Story of benzo withdrawal from a mother who was on Valium for 13 years and has tried a variety of specialists and other treatments to help. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Valium (diazepam), Doctors, Convulsions, Fluoroquinolone, Surgery, Hydromorphone, Shingles Vaccine, Tai Chi Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/anxiety-the-beast-of-benzo-withdrawal-bfp009 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Kathy’s Story I am 73 and have been on Valium for 13 years. I was prescribed 5 mg daily for pelvic muscle spasms and pain. They worked well for five years. I got very sick for six months with vertigo then 24/7 nausea. Valium was the only thing that made it tolerable. I was prescribed Cipro and the rest is a terrible nightmare. For four of those months I was taking up to 35mg of Valium a day. I had my gallbladder removed and the nausea went away. My doctor told me to go off the Valium 5 mg every other day. I got a bladder infection from such a tight pelvis I couldn’t urinate, sleep, or eat. I was prescribed Cipro and the rest is a terrible nightmare. Not understanding Valium at all, I thought I was sick for the last eight years of trying to get off Valium. So, have gone to gastroenterologist, neurologist, psychiatrists, autoimmune specialist, pain specialists, naturopathic doctors, therapists, neurofeedback, biofeedback, PT, for my almost daily withdrawal symptoms. I am on 4 mg daily. I recently had the second Shringrix shingles shot that has dramatically increased my convulsions, which I hadn’t had for almost a year. The last convulsions happened after I went down from 5 mg to 4 mg of Valium. My psychiatrist wanted me to just jump off the 5 mg of Valium to just get it over with. I didn’t take his advice. The convulsions have been so bad that I have taken 1 mg of Ativan three times since October 10. I was a skier, backpacker, mountain bike rider, white water canoer, masters swimmer, wife, mom, and teacher. I am now pretty much disabled. I hope to try Tai Chi soon. Valium has taken away my life and many friends. Valium has taken away my life and many friends. At this point, I don’t know whether to continue the brutal withdrawal or just up my dose. I have too many symptoms to mention and no where to go for help. I am feeling pretty hopeless and a drag on my family. I had surgery on my sacrum in 2013 and was on hydromorphone for 2 1/2 years and got myself off that opioid in five weeks. I wish Valium was the same and as easy to get off of. I also would love to be in a support group but none exist where I live. I am just wearing out from this horrible drug. Kathy Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.

Summary Story of a middle-aged man whose dependence and withdrawal from Xanax had severe negative effects on his health, career, and marriage. Details Key Topics: Anxiety, Benzos, Dependence, Withdrawal, Xanax (alprazolam), Doctors, Imipramine, Antidepressant, GAD, Counseling, Career Loss, Relationship Loss, Separation, Fear, Symptoms Listen on the Podcast: https://www.easinganxiety.com/post/anxiety-the-beast-of-benzo-withdrawal-bfp009 Content Warning Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. If this is a concern for you, please refrain from reading any further. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. Opinions stated are those of the author only. See our disclaimer at the bottom of this post for more information. Jeff’s Story I am a 53-year-old man. I was first prescribed Xanax back in 1987. I had just graduated from college and had taken my first real job. I was excited, but even more so, I was scared that I didn’t have what it took to abandon my college lifestyle and embark on a career. I began having very strong surges of anxiety, bordering on panic, and within a few weeks I had become rather stuck in an acute anxiety state. I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and was given a tricyclic antidepressant called Imipramine, as well as a prescription for .25mg Xanax, to be taken only at bedtime. Over the next several months, I got used to my new life, became adept at my job, and my symptoms waned. I discontinued the antidepressant, but I continued to take .25mg – .50mg Xanax every night at bedtime, and never stopped. When I look back over all the years, I only used Xanax at bedtime. I don’t really feel like it had any detrimental effects on me other than feeling groggy when it was time to get up in the morning. I’m sure it had other negative effects, but nothing particularly disabling or uncomfortable. I do know that I was emotionally dependent on Xanax to fall asleep every night… I do know that I was emotionally dependent on Xanax to fall asleep every night and there must have been some degree of chemical dependence as well. During those years, my anxiety would flare up from time to time due to stressful life circumstances; and as the situations resolved, my anxiety would always go back into remission. In 2010, I had some marital and job problems and that old anxiety made a predictable return. My doctor recommended increasing my Xanax use, and for the first time in my life I started using it during the day. I didn’t think much of it at the time. I was grateful for the relief it provided and my doctor clearly felt that I could benefit from it. Over the next several months, a powerful physical dependence took hold; but I was completely unaware of what it was. I just continued treating my escalating anxiety with more Xanax. It was during the fall of 2011 when I entered into a different state of being. From that time forward, I was out of my mind with constant fear / terror / anxiety. I was in that fearful state around the clock, and I was having to get up during the middle of the night to take additional Xanax, only to wake the next morning in utter terror. Of course, I was in a miserable state of tolerance withdrawal, but I had no idea what that was. I asked my psychiatrist if the Xanax could actually be causing my symptoms and he assured me this was not the case… Several times over the next five years, I asked my psychiatrist if the Xanax could actually be causing my symptoms and he assured me this was not the case and that I needed weekly counseling. I did weekly counseling for two years and my counselor was confused as to why I was not making any progress. Even though my life circumstances were settled and stable, this feeling of constant fear raged on, and I was barely functional on any level. Neither my psychiatrist nor my counselor recognized the signs and symptoms of severe tolerance, and I was given many additional medications for my “severe, treatment-resistant anxiety.” It wasn’t until Jan. 2017 that I did massive research and found out what had happened to me. I discovered a huge online community of people whose stories corroborated my own. I was in such severe tolerance withdrawal I did not feel that a slow, symptom-guided taper was possible, as I was not able to stabilize at any dose. I controlled the rate of my four-month-long taper, which is quite rapid among those in the know. (This may have been a mistake). I am now 16 months off and I have yet to feel any measurable improvement at all. My symptoms are almost entirely emotional / mental. The fear / terror is by far the worst symptom and is completely crippling. I also suffer from severe cognitive disruption and the brain fog and mental fatigue is often staggering. I lost my job two weeks into my taper and have not been able to work since. My wife and I have put our home up for sale and we have separated. (I’m living with my parents). In summary, I have lost my health, my career, my home, my finances, and by the time this is over, I may have lost my marriage. In summary, I have lost my health, my career, my home, my finances, and by the time this is over, I may have lost my marriage. I honestly don’t see ever being able to recover from this. Benzodiazepine withdrawal has all but destroyed me. My history of benzodiazepine consumption: 1987-2000 .25mg every night at bedtime 2000-2009 .5mg every night at bedtime 2010 1mg/day (.5mg at bedtime and .5mg at some point during the day) 2011 1.5mg/day (.5mg 3X/day) 2012-2017 2mg/day (.5mg 4X/day) Tapered Feb. 2017-June 2017. Benzo free since June 14, 2017. Jeff Share Your Story We are always looking for new stories to share. Please visit our feedback form if you’d like to share your story with our community. Thank you. Disclaimer All stories shared on Easing Anxiety are done so with the author’s permission. These stories are provided for informational purposes only and should never be considered medical advice. The views and opinions expressed within are those of the author only, and do not necessarily reflect those of Easing Anxiety or its founder. Stories presented on Easing Anxiety may contain triggering content for certain segments of the population. While provided as an informational resource to our community, some stories may not be beneficial to those who are sensitive to their content. Regarding benzodiazepine withdrawal or BIND, most people can withdraw safely, successfully, and without serious complications if they are informed and have a solid support system. Many of the stories shared on Easing Anxiety are extreme and should not be used to create any expectations of one’s individual experience. Please read the Ashton Manual formore information and work with your doctor. Withdrawal, tapering, or any other change in dosage of benzodiazepines, nonbenzodiazepines (Z-drugs), or any other prescription medication should only be done under the direct supervision of a licensed physician. View our complete disclaimer for more info.